*for now.
My life has taken some pretty crappy turns money wise, and I've decided that one way to save some money, is to put my FFXI account on hold. It was very sad to deactivate my content IDs, but I know it's not forever.
I've played this game for 4 years now. Stardust is my first and only "main" character; and as silly as it sounds, I've grown attached to her. I even cried when I finalized it all.
I wasn't able to speak with LBW, the leader of my shell, but I did leave him a message and part of the sky bank. Hopefully they'll continue sky, and if not that money deserves to be divided up between our remaining members.
Our sky was going downhill fast. I refrained from blogging about it, because I'd always tried to remain optimistic. That's not the case. We've lost too many members due to some big drama that happened a while back (I'm still not clear on what all happened), leaders disappearing without notice other than: "Oh hey I'm on trial for such-and-such linkshell blah blah blah...", and generally lower and lower attendance. And I'll admit; I'm not the perfect leader. I've actually been AWOL for 3 weeks, but that's because I'm sort-of a coward and didn't want to deal with it.
So yeah, I'm psudo-quitting because of money, but also I'm tired of it all. I'm not trying to put anyone down, and if by chance anyone actually reads this; know that I'm proud of what we created. For a time our sky was unstoppable. And the few dedicated members that stuck around to the end, I'm proud to have been associated with you guys. You're awesome! But the time comes I suppose for every linkshell's demise.
I'm just sorry I'm too coward to tell you "face to face".
Again, if this is actually read; I wish you all the best. Nothing but luck and fortune in your endeavors. I will be back someday, I only hope that you'll accept me back.
With love always,
Star
*I'm not abandoning this journal, I'll continue to write.
